We went for a walk all together today, all the members of the Constituent Assembly, meaning Sorokin and Argunov joined us, too.
The last day of the old year, and what a year! I remember how, in an article I wrote before the last New Year, I expressed the wish that in 1917, those hopes of 17 October 1905 which had not been made a reality would be brought to fruition at last. How far the present situation has outrun those hopes - and it has destroyed them at the same time, as the tyranny of old has been replaced by tyranny of a small coterie. How sad and lonely it is to see in the New Year in this way. Dolgorukov promised to knock on my wall at 12 o’clock. This is the only communication we are allowed on this New Year’s Eve.
How funny. They gave us “holiday” sausages, more than a pound per person. They want to make our life seem slightly better with this. A soldier carried out this task with a satisfied look. But we were not given any hot food. Around 2 o’clock they brought only one spoon of cold buckwheat kasha. I still don’t know the reasons for this kitchen “strike.” The sausage was definitely stuffed with salt. Today there was not only no lunch, but no walk either. The latter is much more painful. In the cell, heart palpitations really bother me.
Solitude is indeed a good thing. Sometimes it is necessary, and it has come to me just at the right time to allow me to think about everything that has happened to me in the past few months. See more
But if only I could see the sun, the fields, if only I was able to be alone somewhere other than in a prison cell behind a locked door. A forced solitude can be torturous to anyone, and insufferable for many. I wasn't even allowed to go for a walk yesterday. I don't know why. Maybe because I was offered a trip to the bathhouse, or, maybe, they just forgot. The bathhouse was not bad, but very dirty and poorly kept.
I’m so afraid that the Kornilov tragedy is only the beginning of a string of such events that will last until “economic prerequisites” destroy the cause of the revolution. And only then would the descendants of Louis Blanc and Bakunin weep from desperation and impotent rage. Is this what we have been waiting for? Is this what we have been hoping for in early March?
An unfathomable and unnecessary demonstration of the strength of the “proletariat” is once again set to take place today. The business life of the city has died off, and tens of thousands of people will take to the streets without a clear understanding of why and for what sake they’re doing so... See more
The Bolsheviks and anarchists decided to adhere to this manifestation their tasks and began to prepare for a "peaceful" demonstration with weapons in their hands. Some regiments, especially those corrupted by their propaganda and idleness, also wanted to show strength. The case threatened to get complicated before the massacre, and we began to protest in the Council of Ministers. Tsereteli and others used all the forces to prevent weapons and, it seems, they still succeed. Now the manifestation is only at the beginning and how it will pass - I do not know.
We also have surprising heat. From the beginning of May until now there has been no rain, it is humid, dusty, oppressive. The general political situation is similar to the weather conditions. There is no invigorating, gracious rain, and no storm with gale and thunder.
Milyukov and Shingaryev went to the front. While they were gone, a Provisional Government meeting was unexpectedly called late one evening in Prince Lvov's apartment. Kerensky and Tereshchenko took it upon themselves to sharply attack the point about the Straits and Milyukov’s entire role in the Provisional Government. I was the only one to stand up for him. See more
The rest were silent or criticized Miliukov, his policy, and the question of the Straits was given no support. It was suggested that we should remove Miliukov. True, he heads a large social group. You can’t just throw him out. It was said that Milyukov could be given the Ministry of Education, but everyone supported the decision to remove him from the Ministry of Foreign Affairs. I saw that the Provisional Government was descending into demagoguery, and I finally concluded that the only way out was to finally break the great compromise and go to battle, even with harsh measures. I then returned home and wrote Lvov a letter.
I wrote him that I couldn’t take any further part, nor could I share responsibility for the country’s disintegration, what is now happening and doesn’t meet any opposition in the Provisional Government. I asked to be considered relieved from my post. Then, in order to prevent any attempts to convince me otherwise, or make any impossible attempts on their part, I sent this letter to Lvov and a copy to the editors of the New Times with a request to print.
The situation is getting worse with every day. We are heading towards the abyss. A revolution would be our undoing, but we are surely heading for one. And even without a revolution everything is coming undone at a dizzying rate. The supply situation in Petrograd is already critical. If not today then tomorrow we will run out of bread. The soldiers are grumbling, and the garrison is unreliable. At least, as you know, our military power and technical capabilities have grown to unprecedented levels. Our spring offensive will be supported by a hitherto inconceivable quantity of shells. If we can just hang on till the spring…