На самом деле 49 лет.I could not even send a telegram. There was no service! Lunched with everyone in another house, then wandered a little bit around my own. I do not want anything. Lunch and evening passed as always.
Zinaida Yusupova came for tea, full of concern and deeply shocked by all that had happened. Her hands trembled more than usual. Then we went for a stroll on foot with Zenia, Zina and Orbeliani; we can’t go by transport anymore because those scoundrels have taken all the petrol. I was fatally tired and I felt so horrific that I barely moved my legs; probably the body’s “contre coup” to all the anxiety and so on.
I was suddenly awoken at 5:30 in the morning by a knock at the door. In the terror of the twilight, I made out a man who loudly declared that he had been sent on behalf of the government to search the house. Despite my firm protestations, they pulled back the canopy, and the lieutenant said that I had to get out of bed. See more
I sharply expressed my displeasure to them. Though I don’t quite remember what I was saying, I was so beside myself. I only remember how the officer, in a rather offended tone, said: "You offend me," to which I sharply replied: "I don’t insult you, but you insult me."
They opened all my dressers, even those where the jewels were kept. He rummaged through everything. He sat down at my desk, and emptied the drawers, in which I kept a bunch of letters from my beloved Sasha and my sweet angel Georgie as well as the Danish New Testament my dear mom gave me!
I watched what he was doing in the mirror and said that these were letters from 1894 and my New Testament, and I asked them to take them out of the bag in which he threw everything. But he told me that he didn’t throw anything anywhere, but put them in a bag and that was where they’d remain. Thus, my most precious, most holy relics disappeared. It was something truly unimaginable!
Everyone in the Ai-Todor was taken into custody, security was posted everywhere and searches were conducted.
Arrived in Kiev at 1o’clock. How things have changed! At the station there is no one, only on the platform civilians with red bows. Disgusting!
I feel awfully sick at heart– what else might happen? Lord, help us! Such cruelty! I feel very ashamed of everything that has happened. It is vital that all this should not affect the course of the war; otherwise, all will be lost. Nicky came to dinner. He stayed until eleven o’clock. Two huge red flags have been hung up above the City Duma right before Nicky’s eyes!
There are absolutely no messages from St. Petersburg. This is very unpleasant. The Duma is closed, I wonder why. They say that this is definitely her! Another terrible mistake in such a moment! You truly have to be mad to assume such responsibility.
I enjoyed a stroll through the garden. The weather is gorgeous. It’s warm in the sun.