На самом деле 49 лет.I could not even send a telegram. There was no service! Lunched with everyone in another house, then wandered a little bit around my own. I do not want anything. Lunch and evening passed as always.
Day of the Emperor’s Angel! Oh, what a sad day. I’m sick - terrible cold - my living room is a glacier.
The Fatherland is in peril, and each of us must defend it with every ounce of our strength, regardless of how difficult that might be. At this point in time I will not accept notices of resignation from members of the high command who wish to neglect their duty. Those who have already decided to leave the ranks of the army and the navy (deserters) must return by the date set (28th May).
Those who defy this order will be prosecuted to the full extent of the law.
Mumble away! Agree all the words! Dot the 'i's and cross the 't's. If you need a dictatorship to save Russia - deliver one. And if Kerensky orders to hang me first for the sake of order, I will say hang me! If that is what is needed.
Parade will change the views of an impressive number of spectators. They will surely be taken by surprise, but they will be amazed in the most pleasant way.
I turned 49 years old, I do not have long to go until 50. My thoughts were particularly on dear Mama. It is difficult to not even be able to write. I do not know anything about her other than what I read in the stupid and offensive state newspapers. The day went like Sunday; Mass, breakfast upstairs, the puzzle. We all worked in the vegetable garden; we began to dig up the flower beds; after;tea vespers were served, dinner and evening reading — it is much better with my dear family than ordinarily.