I only now returned from St. Petersburg; I was at the Ambassador’s. What a pity that I did not know about his intention, and not abandoned him, and for all that have him stay at the workshop.
I discouraged him—not to try it – he’s weary now, it’s an inconsistent time for trains on account of the weather.
In any case, I will be ready to present a portrait to his court on Wednesday morning, and so on, if he’s curious. The completion of a portrait can only be done in the room where it was started.
A whole excursion of young girls and boys came from a Moscow school, where girls and boys study together.
It is not for the present day pygmies to erase what was done for the Russian soldier and officer from the memory of the Russian Army, my detachments!
A more complete happiness cannot be fathomed, than that of a mother’s happiness as she kisses her still barely babbling child. God! God! God! My God! If life had turned out a little differently, how blessed those ways opened to me would be.
Hagenen visited me in the morning. We talked about “the war for French public opinion” in connection to the “unsolvable” question of Alsace and Lotharingia. He says that nothing can be done and that the war will last a very long time. See more
The French were expecting actions from the Americans. He spitefully hinted that there would be nothing to eat in Switzerland by May. Then, perhaps, she will enter the war. One needs to mention that this kind of statement is frequent here nowadays. It is not clear what it is: disinformation from the side of the Entente or a real leak.
The Bolsheviks have no right to wait for the Congress of Soviets, they must take power at once. By so doing they will save the world revolution (for otherwise there is danger of a deal between the imperialists of all countries, who, after the shootings in Germany, will be more accommodating to each other and will unite against us), the Russian revolution (otherwise a wave of real anarchy may become stronger than we are) and the lives of hundreds of thousands of people at the front. See more
Delay is criminal. To wait for the Congress of Soviets would be a childish game of formalities, a disgraceful game of formalities, and a betrayal of the revolution. If power cannot be achieved without insurrection, we must resort to insurrection at once.
Victory is certain, and the chances are ten to one that it will be a bloodless victory. To wait would be a crime to the revolution.
By luck I found a magnificent villa belonging to Beliaievsky, an engineer, charmingly furnished and having a little garden. My sister and Baron Zeddeler settled there with me. I immediately engaged a cook and organised my household. See more
Although I was accustomed to greater comfort and luxury, I at last felt at peace, and happy to have a modest home after four months of wandering.