We must put up a fight, or the country will be doomed. N. came to see me at the front. He is still obsessed with his idea of a coup, and of placing the Grand Duke Dmitry Pavlovich on the throne. He is planning something, and asked me to work with him. I declared categorically that I will not enter into any escapade involving the Romanovs.
The members of the government realize that they are quite powerless to do anything. They are asking me to join the government, but I won’t. Those gentlemen are too closely linked to the Soviets and cannot make up their minds to do anything. I tell them that if they grant me the necessary power, I will wage a genuine struggle. We need to keep Russia on course for the Constituent Assembly. After that, people can do what they like. I will take a back seat, and not stand in anyone’s way. So, Anton Ivanovich, may I count on your support?
There is no rain, we need it badly.
It is my third day in London. I wait in constant expectation of my departure for America. My impressions after leaving Russia and especially in England and London have been very unhappy. You experience something like shame when you see order and convenience of the sort that has lost all representation in your homeland. See more
And London is even in the range of aerial attacks, which turn out to be much more serious than the press makes them out to be. The Germans are striving to attack City, the central banking and commercial region, and have managed to cause some damage there.
They are currently sailing out on the ship from Tyumen. Tobolosk is 300 versts from the railway, and in winter can only be reached on horseback. Kerensky puts on airs of rudeness in the presence of the soldiers’ and workers’ deputies, but alone with the royal couple he is respectful and even addresses them by their titles.
The train went almost to the pier, so that we only had to get off and go down to the ship. Our ship was called "Rus." They began the transfer of our things and it continued all night. Poor Alexis was again resting, God knows how. The pounding and uproar lasted all night and almost overcame me. They left Tiumen about six o'clock.
Things are so sickening that I don’t even feel like talking. Only my work saves me—it saves me because as it organizes my life, it exhausts me, and since it exhausts me, it organizes my life. Lyuba and work—I see nothing else nowadays. See more
They questioned Guchkov for the third day straight. It is difficult to seem more morose than he is and to speak more morosely than he does. At least I swim. Tomorrow, I hope, after one more hearing, I will be able to get away for a while and swim.
Russia became a cesspool. Germany was unrepentant of her terrible materialism which had been the prime cause of the war. Spain and Italy were sunk in alternate atheism and superstition. France had no religious ideal. Britain was confused and distracted, full of wooden sects which had nothing of life in them. See more
America had abused her glorious opportunities and, instead of being the loving younger brother to a stricken Europe, she held up all economic reconstruction by her money claims; she dishonoured the signature of her own president, and she refused to join that League of Peace which was the one hope of the future. All have sinned, but some more than others, and their punishment will be in exact proportion.